Friday, February 22, 2013

Hurry up and wait


"Hurry up and wait. Imagine the best. Purge your thoughts of the worst. Keep the best. But when you discard the worst, don’t ignore what might be real symptoms," said the woman who ignored all the clues that something was wrong.

So since my last status report I’ve completed my brain radiation, spent time with my extended family who came from as far as Texas and Alaska to celebrate the life of my brother in law who died after a 5-year siege, joined Silver Sneakers and started to use the treadmill every day (today is day 5), attended my first metastatic support group and the Support Center’s memoir writing group (talk about talent…check out Carol's video here. ), and begun to change my diet. The time with my extended family made me feel like Wayne chose this time to die because he knew how much I needed their arms around me.

I turned down a work project. WOW! Turning down work? I don’t know the impact of my Christmas Day trauma and the radiation on my brain and don’t feel ready to handle the stress, despite the lure of additional income.

Yes, I'm bald.  I’ve watched many YouTube videos to learn to wrap and tuck turbans. And, I’ve been putting all those scarves from my hospital administration days to good use.

We're exploring juicing to see whether it will fit our lifestyle.  So far,thinking about it is the most we've done.. Do you juice? Have you done a juice fast? Any tips to share?

I’m off the steroids now so I expect my activity level will slow. This week I had my first day when I thought I’d just like to sleep all day. Or, at least keep my eyes closed while I hurried up taking control of my attitude, exercise, diet, and whatever else comes my way.

2 comments:

Christine Webb-Curtis said...

I have no tips, but I've joined google+ or +google--whatever it's called--just so I can keep up. And besides, you invited me. I can see this is a struggle, and it will continue to be a struggle; but it seems there's reason to be hopeful. Advances are so dramatic every several months that I liken it to the advances made to the network available to us.

Dimity and I are in touch pretty constantly--several times a week. And we both have you in our thoughts--in the best way you can possibly imagine.

I'll pray (so to speak in my UU way) for the return of your energy.

And anyway, I send love.

Chris
penattheready.com
cpwcurtis@gmail.com

Christine Webb-Curtis said...

I have no tips, but I've joined google+ or +google--whatever it's called--just so I can keep up. And besides, you invited me. I can see this is a struggle, and it will continue to be a struggle; but it seems there's reason to be hopeful. Advances are so dramatic every several months that I liken it to the advances made to the network available to us.

Dimity and I are in touch pretty constantly--several times a week. And we both have you in our thoughts--in the best way you can possibly imagine.

I'll pray (so to speak in my UU way) for the return of your energy.

And anyway, I send love.

Chris
penattheready.com
cpwcurtis@gmail.com